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    November 30

    Sheffield

    So much to tell but so want sleep!

     

    So yeah, got up at a reasonable time this morning, walked to Bournville, got into town, onto train. Nothing especially interesting to tell about this part of the day, 'cept guess who was sitting just across the aisle from us on the train? Only David Lawrence!!!!!

     

    Um. Got there in plenty of time, and went on funky tram up to the university. They'd said that they would provide sandwiches and drinks so we had naïvely hadn't brought any lunch, only a banana and a biscuit each. The sandwiches were awfully dainty (read teensy, with hardly any filling) and it's a wonder we didn't faint from hunger before the afternoon was out!

     

    The actual university programme went fine though. We were having the introductory lecture when who should wander in and sit down but Steven Jones and mum - this is the actual proof that mathematicians don't communicate with one another! We saw some accommodation (nothing remarkable in either direction really, buildings are a bit ugly but in nice surroundings), had a tour of the Union and Sports Centre, and went in a really cool but quite scary lift in the Arts building! It's just a series of metal boxes on a pulley system, so no doors or anything, and you've just gotta step on and off the moving platform! We also heard quite a bit about the various pub crawls that go on throughout the week!

     

    On the maths side, we got told loads about studying in Canada/ America in the third yr (wowowow!), and the interview turned out to be all right. At the start, we'd been given schedule sheets with rooms and interviewers. They'd obviously had some problems finding enough staff to interview, so being the last on the alphabetical list, guess who had a blank.. So I got this nice lecturer guy, who'd evidently not been expecting any students at all, but he did seem to know what he was doing and everything - he just had a couple of phone calls from his wife, asking which button to press on the new car!!! I got asked a few mini maths problems, most of which I was fine on, and when we came out, he said that I'd obviously been very well taught. How do you take that? That could be a compliment, or it could mean that I had no ability and it was all down to my teachers scraping me through! But it's true that I have been very well taught!

     

    Then to finish off we had a random guy, already retired but taken back to give his 'party piece' I assume, very funny. Think 'Sound of Music' combined with Pythagoras' Theorem!

     

    And we met Ben as planned.. and came home to find cold fog.. and fell asleep at the keyboarddddddddddd.

    November 29

    Interviews

    I've got my Sheffield interview tomorrow. I shouldn't be nervous, I should save that for Cambridge and it's not like an offer rests on it, but I hate interviews, where you're put on the spot about things you'd be perfectly happy talking about otherwise. I know why I want to do Maths, I think, but when Miss Plackett asked me this morning in a lil practice session, I didn't know what to say. She also gave me some mock questions to do, ones where you had to spot the error, and I made a real pig's ear of them. I'm meant to be able to do Maths, I can usually do Maths, but I was under pressure and I was mixing up differentiation and integration for hell's sake, and it was only Miss Plackett there watching me. I never do that. :-( Not good :-(
     
    On a slightly more positive interview (of sorts), it was parents evening last night. Lets just say I'm in the process of trying to sort out the issues I seem to be having *ahem*Classics*ahem*, but the two quotes of the evening are as follows:
     
    Mr Overton: "Don't take this the wrong way, Lucy, but you're like a dog chewing a bone."
    Mr Griffiths: "Yes, she's really come out of herself now. She gets all the dirty jokes in class!"
     
    Thanks..
    November 23

    A Concerted Effort

    I found this very apt article on MSN Today:
     
     
    and to my great satisfaction, the lemon and ginger herbal tea which I persuaded mum to buy at the weekend fits into three catagories! Three! Should hope so in a way, cos it wasnt cheap, but it does seem to have been working actual miracles on my throat. I got home with a throbbing head and not much voice, having been rehearsing all morning and waiting for a bus for ages in Bartley Green in the c-c-cold. Two cups of two (and a toasted muffin with Marmite :) ) later, and I am fit to sing again, which is just as well, considering the concert is in.. an hour and five minutes...
     
    Yay! Fun! (no sarcasm whatsoever!)
     
    Except there's a really snitty bass in the adult choir who I have to ignore hard, otherwise I'd just tell him to.. you get the idea!
    November 22

    I'm Not Vindictive

    Much..
     
    I am playing tomorrow. I may have to sight-transpose and play a horrible part over the upper break that wasn't even written for the clarinet, but I'm playing. Also, I can count to 3 and keep in time, giving me an advantage in the Warlock, so yah boo sucks.
     
    Never mind. But anyone who knows what I'm on about, I have stood up for myself. Sorta. Well, enough. Ha.
    November 19

    I've Done It!!!!!

    I HAVE AN OFFER FROM DURHAM! FOR MY FIRST CHOICE COLLEGE!
     
    All is happiness! And you know what? Cambridge can say what the fuck they like cos I don't need an offer from them to go to a university where I can enjoy myself!
    November 18

    Spread The Word!

    Sitting here listening to the Walton CD that Mr G lent me (and that somehow mysteriously duplicated itself overnight), and I've realised that people who don't listen to classical music are missing out on the amazingness of Walton's Façade Suite for Orchestra!!!

     

    I actually don't understand how people can listen to it and not just fall in love..

     

    I will even part with the disk for a (short amount of) time if more people can hear the wonderfulness! Even if it's the only piece of classical music you try, go for it, it is incredible! Make your ears happy!

    November 16

    Sod's Law

    I've even now got an offer from Bristol ! Bristol!
    November 14

    Ill (Again)

    I've got a really crappy immune system...
     
    However, Mum told me a story which has cheered me up considerably, so I feel it my duty to pass it on:
     
    A carer for an autistic child had been trying to get him to understand that when somebody points at something, it means that you have to look in the direction that their hand is going towards. They were out for a walk, when the carer spotted an overturned dustbin, and a little squirrel hopping amongst the rubbish. She decided to test out the kid's response, and pointed to the squirrel. "Look at that!" she said. To her delight, the kid's eyes focused on the squirrel also. 'Great!' she thought, 'I'm really getting somewhere!'
     
    The kid was amazed. "Well, really!" he said. "Somebody's thrown away a perfectly good squirrel!"
    November 11

    Remembrance

    Today has been horrible.
     
    I'm not surprised when people ask me why I'm wearing a white poppy. That's fair enough. It's also fair enough for people to have a bit of a debate about it, as it's a sensitive issue and obv not everybody possesses my opinions about war/ fighting/ politics et al.

    What I do have a problem with is what happened today. Basically, Mr Bennett said to me during registration/ PSE (they all merge into one..) that he thought that I should take my white poppy off for the assembly at 11 o clock, because he thought that it was inappropriate. Why? Because he found the white poppy offensive and thought that it was disrespectful. When I objected, the whole class launched into a debate which lasted for the next hour.
     
    I'm trying to understand his arguments, and there were clearly other members of the form who really sympathised with him. Apparently, his father fought in the Second World War, and found the whole thing pretty traumatic (unsurprisingly) though he survived. Clearly the elder Mr Bennett did not like the white poppy movement, and felt that it was disrespectful to the soldiers who had lost their lives to renounce the cause for which they had died, especially since to a lot of people's minds, WWII was an inevitability anyway. Mr Bennett's other main argument was that a Remembrance service was not the time to be making a political statement.
     
    For a start, that goes towards explaining his standpoint, as it does mine - he was brought up with a dad who had fought, and who disliked a particular symbol; I have been brought up as a Quaker, and for two different reasons, neither of my grandfathers fought in the war (my mum's dad had tuberculosis, couldn't wear a gas mask, and spent most of the war in hospital anyway; my dad's dad was a scientist, so he was kept in his job for obvious reasons). That's not 100% relevant, but it undeniably changes your perception of things.
     
    Did I explain in a previous blog entry the full reasons for wearing the white poppy? Maybe, I can't remember, but I'm gonna reiterate them anyway. The poppy is first and foremost a symbol of remembrance. It is, like the red ones, a symbol of those who died, who gave their lives fighting for their country. Whether or not you believe in war, those men should be, and are, respected and remembered.
     
    However, the white poppy is also a symbol of peace. It promotes the need to actively work for peace, because unfortunately, human nature is such that peace is not an inevitability. What is the point of remembering one generation of lost men if we then set out to kill another? I am sure that all of the soldiers who died or were injured would not wish the same fate on more soldiers in the future. They did not die so that a slaughter could continue - they died in the belief and in the hope that they could make the world a safer place. If WWII was necessary, a point upon which I am not sure where I stand, then it was to prevent the spread of a cruel and facist regime, and it is up to current society to help prevent other such regimes from rising to such dangerous power. The red poppies do not support war, but the reason why the white poppy movement was set up was that the British Legion refused to print 'Peace' on them. What does this say?
     
    Yes, the white poppy is, in part, a political symbol. But what is remembrance, what is war, if not political? The signing of the armistice, which we are commemorating each year, was political. The suggestion to have a two minute silence at 11 o clock was a political decision back in 1919. Playing the Last Post carries a political message. But those are acceptable? He was arguing that it's fine wearing the white poppy around, just not appropriate in that particular assembly. I'd say that the assembly was the most appropriate time to be wearing it.
     
    Then we come to the most dodgy argument, in my opinion. Mr Bennett compared my freedom of expression to wear a white poppy, which he and a few others find offensive, to the BNP having the freedom of expression to promote racism, which most of the Britain finds offensive. I believe the phrase he kept quoting was 'you wouldn't eat pork in a Muslim's house, would you?'. Well no, I wouldn't. But that's because I do not have a strong principle about eating pork five times a day. And I have to say, I find it really offensive that white poppies are being compared to the BNP. That argument is political correctness gone mad.
     
    I'm not trying to convert people to wearing white poppies. It's up to everyone to make their mind up, and to make their own decision as to what is right for them. But it was horrible to have five people turn round in your face and say 'I think that you are being disrespectful', when to my mind, they don't understand the arguments and reasoning behind the white poppies, and I believe very strongly in what I was doing. Freedom of expression, right?
     
    I wore it into assembly, by the way.
    November 09

    Three Offers!

    Two offers in three days ain't bad! Got home at lunchtime before going out to Cotteridge as usual, and a letter was waiting from York. The only thing is, they haven't actually told me what the offer's for, and they haven't put it on Track either..
    It's ironic, as the only offer that I really want (Durham) is one of the two places that haven't replied yet, not counting Cambridge, of course, and that's a law unto its own anyway.
     
    Still, good going so far..
    November 08

    Today

    Today has been quite weird really! Mainly 'cos I didn't have any lessons, due to the Foundation Service in the morning, Maths Challenge in the afternoon, and I had a free first anyway.
     
    The Foundation Service.. I could whine about the praefectorial system but I'll spare you from that anecdote, as everything turned out OK. Peter Hellyer and Ellen and me had the dubious honour of directing the spare bus that turned up (yes that's right, a spare bus, complete with driver) to KES, to be told that there had been a complete cock-up with the coaches, so it was the group from the girls' school that we took in the end. Anyhow, we didn't get lost, once, and the service once we got there was a little bizarre, but I'm glad I went. John Santamu is an amazing speaker, and the hymns were well chosen, even if I didn't know the last one, and me and Ellen managed to not take the piss too obviously, as we were sitting on the front row. Actually, as church services go, I've known worse. The only point where I had to bite my tongue was when we had to address a prayer to the 'pious King Edward VI' or something..
     
    Guess who we saw? Harry Smith, who we were friends with at primary school! He's tall and he has long(ish) hair, and it's just weird! And I think I saw Mike as well, with the Aston boys, but I wasn't sure if it was him, so I didn't stare too pointedly in case it wasn't! Of course, Ellen knew half the congregration.. she actually knows a good proportion of Birmingham!
     
    Orchestra at lunch, doing the Mozart. I think that's sorted out. I don't know if anyone had had a word or anything, but touch wood, it's OK, and I'm less angry. In a weird way, it was easier with less people there.
     
    Then in the afternoon, the Maths Challenge :-S The sample paper we'd had was blatently easier.. I answed 16 questions out of 25, but I didn't guess on any - wrong answers actually lose you marks - so hopefully I'll have done moderate or thereabouts. It was so demoralising though, and some of the questions were really hard. I know they're meant to be - it's a challenge - but I'm meant to be doing the subject at university next year, and heaven help me with STEP if I can't do well on this now.
     
    Anything else? Um, my poppy and pin, despite being a pacifist poppy, decided to lacerate my wrist, so it now looks like I'm on a suicide mission or something.. I think that's all for now.
    November 07

    Offer No.2

    Wow, I just randomly went on UCAS Track in the sort of idle curiousity to see if my universities were all still being bastards, but I discovered, much to my amazement, that as of today, I have another! It's from UEA, and it's AAB, which I think is a bit rich from a uni who still had Maths places in Clearing well into September, but I've already got the A in single Maths, so.. well it's not like it's my top top choice, and I guess it's still good to have another in the bag!
    November 05

    And Even I'm Screaming With Frustration

    So it finally happened. Riots broke out in Paris' poor, immigrant communities. Deaths, god knows how much damage - and people claim to be surprised. WAKE UP CALL: THIS HAS BEEN COMING FOR ABOUT THIRTY YEARS!

     

    If there was one reason why I'm glad that I did French AS, one thing that made the struggle worth it, it's that I now know why these riots are happening, and I am very glad that I don't live in France. It isn't just about name-calling in the street, though no doubt that goes on. It isn't that nobody's racist in this country, 'cos they are, but I don't think that it's just that I live in Birmingham. There's nothing on the scale of the French. It isn't even that individual French people are all nasty bigots. French society as a whole is just blatently and unashamedly racist.

     

    The vast vast majority of France's immigrant society lives in inner city 'ghettos' (I'm using that word carefully), or the 'cités', as they're called. Apartment blocks, small and badly constructed, provide the accommodation. There are no facilities - a lot of homes don't have basic stuff like fridges, forget youth clubs or cinemas or anything like that. Black, Arab, Muslim, Spanish - basically anybody other than white-of-French-origin - 'outsiders' are all treated the same, especially if they are obviously not European in origin, and are basically excluded from all walks of society. Even if you have a first-class BAC and a good degree, and were born in the country, the chances are that nobody will employ you, because you are l'étranger (the foreigner), and you live in a cité. You do not receive equal treatment in the eyes of the law, however unofficially. If by some miracle you have managed to get a job, you will discriminated against until you want to leave. This has been going on for decades - and without a job, you cannot afford to move.

     

    And it's obvious why the situation hasn't improved. In a word, secularism, and the underlying principles. If instead of celebrating people's differences, you try and make everyone conform to the French ideal, isn't it obvious that some sections of society will end up marginalised and discontented. Why do they think the BNP has had such frightening success rates?

     

    I could go on for yonks (I already have done.. even longer, then!), but I do feel quite passionately about this. For more info, however, try the BBC website, it seems to have some quite good stuff:

    http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/in_pictures/4405822.stm

     

    I'm not one for violence, but it does make you wonder whether these riots were the best thing that could have happened, not least because it has brought the issue into the spotlight of the world's media. People have been drawing parallels with the riots in Lozells a week ago, and I may be looking at our country through rose-tinted glasses, but there's less excuse here. If they think they've got problems with racism, they should visit France.

    November 02

    My Mission

    should I choose to accept it, is to stitch the three-crosses pattern onto a new apron for Cotteridge Church. Some business gave a donation of £500 to the coffee bar, so instead of spending it on, say, more ingredients for bread pudding (£500 worth of course) which would just go mouldy, thus defeating the point of the donation, they've bought nice blue aprons for all the volunteers! And they are nice, considerably nicer than the skanky orange ones, but we all have to sew our own patterns on, so I have to learn to do chain stitch, much to the horror of Betty ("You've never been taught embroidery? What do they teach in schools nowadays?"). To be fair, I knew how to do it when I was about seven, so it's a question of re-learning, but I will be trying on a separate scrap of cloth first..
     
    Completely unrelated, being prone to blushing is a pain, especially when you're trying to deny that you fancy someone in front of your form and they've hit upon (by chance) completely the right person. Your cheeks go a fetching shade of magenta.